Tested three days ago 12DPO... BFN. Tested yesterday... BFN.... This morning my period started... CD1.... sad :-(
I am about to call the RE office which is what we are instructed to do on CD1. If you remember this RE is treating us like we just started this process and wants to do 4 'natural' cycles. La and I sat last night as I felt my period looming and counted back. We did our first ICI in May 2006. Nine tries over the course of a year and May 2007 we were pregnant. That pregnancy ended in August and we started trying again Dec 2007. So here we are one year later, that's 12 IUI's in the last year. I think we qualify for something else. These RE 'natural' cycles are no different whatsoever from what we have been doing with the exception of a follicle check on CD12 and having to pay someone I don't know $200 to hold the syringe and push the 'trigger'.
That all being said, I am planning to call and say....We want something else. He has already said he would use FSH injections as our next step. We were trying to think back last night if any of you have used them and we could not remember. If you have, will you share your experience?
We'll see what they say... damn the next steps scare me.
La wanted to post this video, but when I watch it I feel like I can't breathe, so I didn't want her to put it up. These are the times we would like to have individual blogs. This is the link, but big warning to TTC'ers, it may suck your air out too.
**Update**
Called the RE. Spoke to the nurse. She offered me injectables or IVF. Either way the new process would start tomorrow. I need a sign. I need a drink. I need something. Maybe we should skip. We are going to D.C. for the inauguration. Maybe all that altitude is not good for TTC. I don't know. She said she thought we got way more bang for our buck with IVF even though it is $7,000 more than injectables. Oh what to do...
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
BELIEVE
It's done. IUI # oh who knows... more than 19... I won't dwell on that.
We are in the TWW. La says this is it! I came home last night and she had surprised me by having the nursery painting done. We have been trying out several colors over the last several months and finally found one we like. I'll post pics when it is done. Her new project is a mural in there. It was really sweet! Thank you, baby :-)
La said, 'Hey. did you notice they didn't give us an instruction card for if it doesn't work this time', I said 'yes'. To which she replied 'see I told you, that's because this is it'! I am amazed at her brave courage to leap un-abandoned, arms spread, wind in her face, not afraid to fall- belief. I'm in it tandem... trying to keep my eyes open. I believe.
When we got home our friend had sent this e-mail this morning at 5:36am
Be careful today (driving) !!!! May the spirit of fast moving sperm come upon you and attack your egg today !!!
Love you, T
Very sweet. We love you too!
We are in the TWW. La says this is it! I came home last night and she had surprised me by having the nursery painting done. We have been trying out several colors over the last several months and finally found one we like. I'll post pics when it is done. Her new project is a mural in there. It was really sweet! Thank you, baby :-)
La said, 'Hey. did you notice they didn't give us an instruction card for if it doesn't work this time', I said 'yes'. To which she replied 'see I told you, that's because this is it'! I am amazed at her brave courage to leap un-abandoned, arms spread, wind in her face, not afraid to fall- belief. I'm in it tandem... trying to keep my eyes open. I believe.
When we got home our friend had sent this e-mail this morning at 5:36am
Be careful today (driving) !!!! May the spirit of fast moving sperm come upon you and attack your egg today !!!
Love you, T
Very sweet. We love you too!
Monday, December 15, 2008
Surge **Updated**
CD15 positive LH surge late last night and this morning.
Called office, waiting for returned call with IUI time.
**Update**
IUI scheduled for 8:45am tomorrow. Called work to switch my schedule to be off. I just realized tomorrow is my Dad's birthday. Tomorrow would be a great day to conceive!
Called office, waiting for returned call with IUI time.
**Update**
IUI scheduled for 8:45am tomorrow. Called work to switch my schedule to be off. I just realized tomorrow is my Dad's birthday. Tomorrow would be a great day to conceive!
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Background *Updated*
La found this background and thought it was appropriate to the place we are in. Hoping, praying, wishing.....
Unfortunately when she put it up it erased the whole right side of our page, so I'll have to go back in and fix that. I'm not a big fan of the changing background thing all the time, but this one she likes so we'll keep until Christmas.
CD14 today. Had u/s on CD12 w/ follicle size 15. PEOS twice daily- no surge yet.
**Update**
Oops, I killed the background by accident. Sorry, babe!
Unfortunately when she put it up it erased the whole right side of our page, so I'll have to go back in and fix that. I'm not a big fan of the changing background thing all the time, but this one she likes so we'll keep until Christmas.
CD14 today. Had u/s on CD12 w/ follicle size 15. PEOS twice daily- no surge yet.
**Update**
Oops, I killed the background by accident. Sorry, babe!
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
In A Bad Place
My sweetest Ali is in a bad place. I haven't seen her down and out like this since she miscarried. She hasn't been to work all week....she tried to go today, but came home. Oh, what can I do? This Saturday is her 33rd Birthday....and all she wants is a baby.
God please give her peace and cradle her broken heart. This is just way too hard!
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